I call upon Thee, O Lord my God! with my tongue and with all my heart, not to requite them for their cruelty and their wrong-doings, their craft and their mischief, for they are foolish and ignoble and know not what they do. They discern not good from evil, neither do they distinguish right from wrong, nor justice from injustice. They follow their own desires and walk in the footsteps of the most imperfect and foolish amongst them. O my Lord! Have mercy upon them, shield them from all afflictions in these troubled times and grant that all trials and hardships may be the lot of this Thy servant that hath fallen into this darksome pit. Single me out for every woe and make me a sacrifice for all Thy loved ones. O Lord, Most High! May my soul, my life, my being, my spirit, my all be offered up for them. O God, my God! Lowly, suppliant and fallen upon my face, I beseech Thee with all the ardor of my invocation to pardon whosoever hath hurt me, forgive him that hath conspired against me and offended me, and wash away the misdeeds of them that have wrought injustice upon me. Vouchsafe unto them Thy goodly gifts, give them joy, relieve them from sorrow, grant them peace and prosperity, give them Thy bliss and pour upon them Thy bounty.
The Will And Testament of ‘Abdu’l-Bahá
As I stated before the blogs have been difficult because it felt too much like complaining. And I realized that one thing made all the others and all the people around me were difficult to deal with.
I have been having pain in one of my breasts, along with a lump, and the Dr. ignored me because of my history of chronic pain. That brought anger, to be dismissed in this way. Not that this should be ignored or that changes shouldn’t be made but the solution is never anger.
A quote I always liked about anger that I heard attributed to Buddha.
Anger is a poison that does more harm to the vessel it is carried in than anything that it is poured on.