A few friends have commented on my arrangement.
In Fire and Gold I have been reading quotes on obtaining answers in dreams as a solution to tests.
Meditate thou, perform the ablution and pray to God before sleeping; and whatever the Merciful One may inspire unto thee at the time of revelation in a dream, that will be consistent with obtaining thy wishes. Abdúl’Bahá
So i tried it. Being very concerned with my health and the pain that was what I was focusing on. I prayed after ablution and in the morning the only thing that came to me was to study my chemistry?!?!????
That made absolutely no sense to me! But I did anyway, that night even as tired as I was and miserable.
My brain stilled and I slept so hard that the next day the pain was almost gone.
We were studying guidance at the meeting today, this stood out to me;
Baha’u’llah’s teachings testify to the nobility of the human spirit. The society He envisions is one worthy of that nobility and founded on principles that guard and reinforce it. The oneness of the human family He places at the core of collective life; the equality of women and men He unequivocally asserts. He reconciles the seemingly counteracting forces of our own age-science and religion, unity and diversity, freedom and order, individual rights and social responsibilities. And among His greatest gifts is justice, manifested in institutions whose concern is for the progress and development of all peoples. In His own words, He has “blotted out from the pages of God’s holy Book whatsoever hath been the cause of strife, of malice and mischief amongst the children of men” and, concurrently, “laid down the essential prerequisites of concord, of understanding, of complete and enduring unity”. Might one not ask, what would be a befitting response to such gifts?
October 2017 Universal House of Justice
The answer that resonates with me is obedience!
We discussed how some have taken the letters of the Universal House of Justice as suggestions, just as in the past they took directives from The Guardian as suggestions, and before him Abdu’l-Bahá.
The House of Justice is the center of the Covenant! This gift is unmatched in history. To the best of our ability and understanding, as Bahá’ís, we should be obedient to the directives of The Universal House of Justice and the laws of the faith.
This moment in time
leaves rattle the roof,
winters bite sinks into my joints,
reflecting on a winter pass, and
the frost bitten little feet of The Master.
How can I️ complain?
Shoghi Effendi’s advice to an individual in another instance provides a further perspective: “He urges you to do all you can to promote unity and love amongst the members of the Community there, as this seems to be their greatest need. So often young communities, in their desire to administer the Cause, lose sight of the fact that these spiritual relationships are far more important and fundamental than the rules and regulations which must govern the conduct of community affairs.” From a letter from the Universal House of Justice 19 May 1994
I call upon Thee, O Lord my God! with my tongue and with all my heart, not to requite them for their cruelty and their wrong-doings, their craft and their mischief, for they are foolish and ignoble and know not what they do. They discern not good from evil, neither do they distinguish right from wrong, nor justice from injustice. They follow their own desires and walk in the footsteps of the most imperfect and foolish amongst them. O my Lord! Have mercy upon them, shield them from all afflictions in these troubled times and grant that all trials and hardships may be the lot of this Thy servant that hath fallen into this darksome pit. Single me out for every woe and make me a sacrifice for all Thy loved ones. O Lord, Most High! May my soul, my life, my being, my spirit, my all be offered up for them. O God, my God! Lowly, suppliant and fallen upon my face, I beseech Thee with all the ardor of my invocation to pardon whosoever hath hurt me, forgive him that hath conspired against me and offended me, and wash away the misdeeds of them that have wrought injustice upon me. Vouchsafe unto them Thy goodly gifts, give them joy, relieve them from sorrow, grant them peace and prosperity, give them Thy bliss and pour upon them Thy bounty.
The Will And Testament of ‘Abdu’l-Bahá
As I stated before the blogs have been difficult because it felt too much like complaining. And I realized that one thing made all the others and all the people around me were difficult to deal with.
I have been having pain in one of my breasts, along with a lump, and the Dr. ignored me because of my history of chronic pain. That brought anger, to be dismissed in this way. Not that this should be ignored or that changes shouldn’t be made but the solution is never anger.
A quote I always liked about anger that I heard attributed to Buddha.
Anger is a poison that does more harm to the vessel it is carried in than anything that it is poured on.
We all have faced this problem with somebody we know or Love. I have been surrounded by those my entire life who are fighting the demons of addiction, to the point i am now fanatical against it. All I will say on the subject, is that yes it is between you and God, and it is your personal battle. But it affects everyone who is near you.
O Divine Providence! Bestow Thou in all things purity and cleanliness upon the people of Bahá. Grant that they be freed from all defilement, and released from all addictions. Save them from committing any repugnant act, unbind them from the chains of every evil habit, that they may live pure and free, wholesome and cleanly, worthy to serve at Thy Sacred Threshold and fit to be related to their Lord. Deliver them from intoxicating drinks and tobacco, save them, rescue them, from this opium that bringeth on madness, suffer them to enjoy the sweet savors of holiness, that they may drink deep of the mystic cup of heavenly love and know the rapture of being drawn ever closer unto the Realm of the All-Glorious. For it is even as Thou hast said: “All that thou hast in thy cellar will not appease the thirst of my love—bring me, O cupbearer, of the wine of the spirit a cup as full as the sea!”
Selections from the Writings of Abdu’l-Bahá, 129.12